recent situation

long time no write blog liao...
too busy...
busy wit exam...
recently, so many stress...
i noe so many thing recently...
1st, the ppl i thought is good suddenly turn into a bad guy...
wat a shock...
y he can cover til so secretly...
thank god i din in love to him...
then i noe tat i'm so temper recently...
i can scold ppl juz becoz a small matter...
then 2day i heard again the truth tat i dun wan face to...
the my fren keeping secret n make us so worry bout her...
i think the problem is frm her father...
bad things going on but at least stil got 1 news tat i lik...
mom gonna to buy car soon...
i feel so happy...
n also so selfish...
i dun wan to tell my sis...
i scare her come bac n seize it...
i worry tat the car wil belong to her...
i hope tat spm can past asap...
i'm so tired...
ppl can holiday but pity me stil hav to study...
now i always fancy wat will happen after i got the car...
i hope my dream wil come true...
i ad lost the things everybody had...
i dun wan lost this too...

gathering

few days before i went to my primary skol class gathering...
tat day i really worry bout wat will happen at there...
but thank god...
i hav fun there...
we all very happy at there...
my primary skol fren all very funny...
tats y we non stop laughing n laughing...
we had bbq there...
but too bad...
rain comes...
but they still keep on bbq before the rain get heavy...
when the rain get heavy, all of us hav to squeeze in a small area...
but we stil having fun...
after the rain...
we all full ad...
they wanted to play 'true or dare'...
i knew it before i go...
i guess they will play tat...
finally i'm right...
but they said everybody hav secret...
so we juz play dare to keep everybody secret...
they use bottle to spin n see whether who's the lucky person...
i really scare tat i'll be the lucky person...
1st time...
not me(thank god)...
2nd time...
not me also(oh...)...
but they plan to get the 2nd person a partner...
then my fate came to me... i'm the 3rd lucky person...
wat did we do???
they wan the 2nd lucky fellow(boy) to kneel in front of me n propose...
to me!!!
oh my god...
wat can i do...
juz follow...
standing at there n having a shy face...
some 'audience' told me to not accept him...
but some say if i dun accept...
the guy no need wake up...
oh my god...
help...
hav to accept...
hurry finish up tis mission n bac to sit...
but is fun also...
haiz...
but after tat...
i'm the 1st person bac home...
too bad...
regret...
but no choice...
nobody send me bac if i dun bac at tat time...
however stil hope tat they will organise again this kind of gathering again soon...
maybe 3 month once...
wakaka...
coz too happy wit them...
no cares at all...
juz happy...

WORRY

2moro(i mean 2day coz past 12 o'clock ad) i'll go gathering...
this gathering is for all 6j class wan ppl...
i'm so worry now...
i worry i'll alone at there...
sitting at there silently...
but i call kar mun to accompany me...
thank god at the end she said she will go...
other than tat... wat should i wear 2moro...
should i bring bag...
haiz...
so many to cares about...
i scare i go then they talk bad things of me
or more worst
din talk to me at all...
i'm so scare wit it...
coz i hate alone...
exspecially not in house...
we din meet too long...
i worry then forget who am i ad...
argh~~~~~~~~
wat can i do to let tis problem run out frm my brain...
wat can i do...
hopefully 2moro i'll have a happy ending...

恨

突然觉得我自己很讨人厌
记得有一天
我只是用很普通的语气跟某人说了一句话
可是那人却说我用很凶的语气
后来
我告诉朋友这件事
她告诉我
我的语气一向来都是酱的
当时
开心与恨同时出现
开心是因为我有多了解了自己
可是因为这了解我更恨自己
恨自己不了解自己
恨自己为什么有这种语气
恨自己为什么不直接哑了算了
我该怎么改呢
我能改吗
是这种语气害的吗
害得我失去所有
所有我曾经拥有的东西

闲着也是闲着

好久没写部落格了～
每次想要写～
可是偏偏过一下子就没有心情写了～
今天是闲着也是闲着～
然后突然又想起很久没写了～
所以才写的～
废话一大堆～
因为不懂要写什么～
不是没有东西写～
而是太多了不懂要写什么～

觉悟

躲在自己世界两个星期了
是时候该起来了吧
该出来面对现实了
在这两个星期里
我想了好多好多
好多如果
好多早知道
好多为什么
最后我得到的答案只有后悔
我曾经问过我干妹
“后悔是一个人决定放下或错过后用的。。。你是哪个呢？”
答案呢
是都有
我决定放下以前悲观的我
尽量改变自己
我也决定放下他
因为我错过了很多很多
错过了我跟他之间的事
错过了所有好事
因为我都活在一个悲伤的世界里
所以
从明天起
我要改变自己
改变自己的想法
把悲观改成乐观
希望我这决心能够成功
决心改变
面对未来
希望你们支持我哦
加油！加油！加油！

酸甜苦辣咸

味觉对每个人有不同的意义
厨师没有味觉就如同没有了生命
人类没有了味觉就会觉得生活没有了意义
不同的味觉有着不同的感觉
我对这些味觉的感觉事情：

• 酸－羡慕的感觉

这是我一直以来藏着的感觉

• 甜－难得的感觉

这是我一直希望得到的感觉

• 苦－熟悉的感觉

这是我多年以来习惯的感觉

• 辣－刺激的感觉

这是我少而不想尝的感觉

• 咸－等待的感觉

这是我唯一会拥有的感觉

Toilsome Day

yesterday is a toilsome day...
i slept on 4.40am...
then wake up on 5.40am...
then i still feel lik usual...
juz more tired...
but then when i'm on bus...
i start to feel unwell...
feel lik got something stuck in my throat...
feel lik wanna to vomit...
but i'm on bus...
i cannot juz vomit out...
so i try to stand tat feeling...
then is time i had to change bus...
when i change to the other bus...
there is no any empty place anymore...
then i start more indisposed...
so suffer...
wanna to vomit but cant...
at the same time...
my stomach also start to pain...
tat bus is so cold...
full wit air-cond...
the weakness when my stomach feeling unwell is wind...
somemore tat is air-cond...
lik tis i felt more n more suffer...
then i start to having cold sweat...
oh my god...
almost fainted...
then finally arrive skol...
but weird...
i feel more better when i arrive skol...
but still hav assembly...
haiz...
suppress...
but cant...
i feel more serious...
but still hav to assembly...
somemore standing...
damn it...
start feeling dizzy...
my fren told me tat my lips is totally turn white...
ya...
coz i feel so anguish...
but thank god juz for a while...
then my world slowly back to usual...
coz the teachers let us sit...
then i slept...
after tat i feel more better...
so...
do u think tis is a really toilsome day?

Damn U!!!

hei u... wat kind of fren r u har?
ya...
i like him...
how?
i dunno whether he got gf or not...
i also dun care he got gf or not...
coz i never think about i wanna to be wit him...
i noe tat i din hav tat chance...
tats y i din take action...
u tis damn "fren"...
starting last year u start to say bad thing bout me...
i din did anything to u...
y u wan take my thing as ur story title...
i think u also noe tat i ad noe u always gossip bout me...
now we noe we r pretending to be fren to each other...
my target r to revenge...
but wats urs?
i'm useless for u noe...
hei...
pls la...
i noe u got bf ad...
then how...
i dun think u n ur bf can last how long...
no matter who i lik...
wat i did...
those r all...
NON OF UR BUSINESS...
pls leave me alone...
dun come into my world...
i'm a sleeping volcano by now...
but i dunno whether when i'll wake up...
i juz wanna to say...
i'll wake up anytime if u keep it up...
i'm holding those bad feelings right now...
i'll revenge when u really makes me "BOOM"...
i think tis will come sooner if u keep on lik chicken backside...
so i think no u better...
KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT!!!

Dai Bao Birthday

yesterday is dai bao - phiak birthday...
celebrate in newway...
really play until lik xiao po o...
everybody wit chocolate cake cream...
damn smelly chocolate cream...
when i'm waiting bus at the kp bus stand, the auntie beside me dunno y go far frm me...
i think becoz then smell of the smelly chocolate cake...
haiz...
really xia sui...
then go into bus...
go to the last n corner place...
then a boy sit beside me...
i noe i'm so smelly...
so i stay far frm tat ppl...
haiz...
hate the smell...
i felt after i wash my hair i also smell the chocolate...
lik the smell of vomit thing...
yaks...
disgusting...
but still hav fun 2day...
haha...
dai bao...
did u hav fun too?
by the way...
hope u hav a happy birthday...

Two Weeks Holiday

haiz...
i'm wasting my time...
2 weeks holiday...
wat had i did?
the beginning of the first week...
online...
watch movie...
eat...
sleep...
nothing else i did...
all useless thing...
then the end of the first week...
i thought i will juz use tis whole week to online n watch movie...
but...
my sis...
my noob sis...
she din pay for the p1...
so cant online...
therefore...
i clean my room n my sis room...
wanna use my sis room to study...
at least i done something useful...
clean my sis room...
tat room not lik other room...
ohter room quite warm or can say hot whole day...
but tat room more comfortable...
haha...
happy coz i did it...
then i start doing sej notes...
but i did a bit only...
then i start feel sleepy...
haiz...
then the beginning of the second week...
my bro comes bac...
the beginning of tis week...
i did nothing...
juz cook...
watching my bro play game...
n shopping...
my mom take leave to teman my bro...
the we almost everyday go shopping...
haiz...
we plan to bring my bro go bac on thursday...
but coz of some reason...
he go bac yesterday...
tis few days i only hav chance to go near the computer when he sleep...
coz he non-stop using the computer...
i even din sleep juz for online...
in tis week...
i try 3 day sleep after 6am...
haiz...
become panda ad...
sumore tis 2 week i non-stop eating...
eat eat eat....
fat ad la...
haiz...
wat i did before all useless ad...
haiz...
2day is the end of the 2 weeks holiday...
in tis 2 weeks did nothing...
still hav a lot of homework not yet do...
dunno how will my life be if i continue lik tis...
i feel i had go far frm my target...
very very far...
worried...

A Cool Video

tat day yl show me a cool video...
tat video got some scene which can touch ppl heart n also got some scene tat quite scary...
there is also some scene tat is inappropriate for immature audiences...
haha... but really cool...

Birthday

yesterday is my birthday...
i got a lot of birthday msg before the sun rise...
i feel so happy...
but when the sun rise, i start to wait...
waiting for birthday msg frm somebody...
when i waiting for the msg, i think back to last year...
tat year, i celebrate my birthday in ktv...
i did invite him n he did attend...
i'm very happy...
he did give me present together wit his fren...
then i start to miss him...
n i also starting to ask myself...
y he not yet send birthday msg to me?
did they prepare a special suprise for my birthday?
am i going to meet wit him 2day?
but this is all the no answer's question...
sadness n loneliness start to come into my heart...
i feel sad...
i feel lonely...
if as usual...
i will cry...
but i din...
dunno y my tear din drop...
i really feel wanna to cry but my tears din drop at all...
is it my tears ad dry or finish till i cant cry anymore?
still miss him now...
dunno wat should i do...

A Day Before My Birthday

a day before my birthday my fren invite me out...
we go to sunway...
when we arrive there, we go for our "breakfast"...
we eat in 'the chicken rice shop'...
the food at there no bad, but the service...erm...
after tat we go for a movie...
but we going to the cinema, we lost our direction...
thank god we can find the cinema before the movie start...
after we watch the movie, we go for archery...
archery is not bad but i dun feel comfortable wit the thing i'm wearing...
so i get a BAD result...
haiz...
but nvm la...
tis is the first time i play tis game...
after tat we go for a walk...
i walk to getting dinner dress...
i go for many shop n i finally found it...
although juz 2 of us...
but also quite happy wan la...

Think So Much

2day i think a lot...
coz 2day is somebody birthday...
suddenly i feel so sad..
i dunno where the sadness come frm...
but suddenly i feel sad n keep on thinking wat will happen to my future...
no matter 2moro or anyday...
i really hate this kind of festival...
coz i din hav those thing tat should i hav on this kind of festival...
so i'm thinking wat will happen on tat day...
will it happen something tat i'm hoping happen?
wat will i do if really happen?
or wont happen anything n juz pass through lik usual...
tis kind of festival always pass through my life lik usual day...
start frm the day i steps into form 4...
i suddenly feel tat when i'm going out wit them i feel lonely...
sitting in the car alone in back...
full wit sadness...
non-stop thinking y i'm going through tis kind of life...
why can my life juz lik other ppl...
when i think until here, my tears falls...
but is dark n i'm alone behind the car...
my tears...
which is so valuable...
wont drop juz as i lik...
but all of tis pass...
my tears start turns into unvaluable...
i donno its start frm when...
but it really turn to something which is worthless...
i almost cry everytime when i'm thinking of it...
i don wan to think tat but donno wat force me...
force me to cry...
sadness?
or
loneliness?

Sot liao...

2day i sot ad...
almost midnight i only start sot...
suddenly take the broom n go to sweep the floor...
i always lazy to do tis..
except my mom force me...
long time din lik tis sot ad...
haiz...
sweep my living room, kitchen, n also my room...
after tat somemore mop it...
haiz...
sot ad...
really sot ad...
my leg still lebam...
but not so pain ad...
but when i accidently touch it will be so pain...
haiz...
all tat guy fault...

Pity a...

2day is a relax day for the beginning...
but since my leg step into bus after skol, i start to face to something bad...
i step up to my bus, my head is the 1st organ which got hurt...
i knock the tv...
ouch... pain...
damn tv...
but uncle say "y every ppl lik to knock my tv"...
although pain but quite funny...
hen i start to pay wit my fren...
1 of the fren lik to kacao me...
haiz...
then i ma keep on play wit him lo...
haiz...
then when i wan to hit him...
my knee langgar to something hard...
oh my god...
very very pain...
these is the pic of the lebam...
not so clear...
but really pain...
walk also wil pain...
haiz...




haiz...
all his fault...
ALL HIS FAULT!!!

Apologize

u r not the onli 1 who should say sorry...
i also got my fault...
i din mean to talk to u using tat tone...
juz i also dunno y...
n i really cant found my pendrive...
but anyway...
i had to say sorry too...

SORRY!!!!!

n y u wan put tat pic o...
so ugly le...
somemore is the 1st pic...
haiz...
nvm...
i also got 1...

u juz finish cutting hair n buying ear ring at kawaii...

Reply To Somebody

first of all...
u borrow tat pendrive frm me on 30 April...
so include today...
u not yet borrow the pendrive frm me for 1 week n 4 day...
u say u din rushing for those pic...
maybe u send a wrong msg for me...
coz u ask for me for the pendrive everyday...
if we change position, i'm sure u will think tat too...
i noe i forget on the 1st few day...
but after tat i really cant find my pendrive...
tat day i told u i'll find it...
i did it...
but i really din find it...
i dun noe whether i did really use those angry tone to tell u tis...
n i really thought the thing in ur pendrive which is secret only files...
so i tell u tat u can transfer those file into ur computer...
if u really say tat is secret...
scare saw by ur sis...
then u can set it to private...
but u din tell me bout the background pendrive...
so i dun noe it...
although i'm not sure wil i borrow other pendrive frm other ppl if i'm in tat position...
but u really din tell me all bout the pendrive...
i don noe tat other ppl hink is who's wrong...
but i noe tat i got wrong...
but u also got wrong...
pls think bout it...
r u rushing for those pic?
did u asking me for the pendrive everyday?
try go borrow something frm other ppl n ask tat ppl everyday frm tat ppl...
did u ask me whether i go bac got find or not?
did u tell me tat the secret in ur pendrive cannot transfer to ur com...
i nvr think tat all is ur fault...
so i think u really don noe me...
coz i nvr say tat its all ur fault...
coz i nvr say tat i'm not stubborn...
i told u before...
we r same kind ppl...

Don Noe Wat Should I Do

i realli don noe wat should i do now...
y tis world got so many problem...
so many such difficult problem...
such annoying problem...
such problem tat ppl will care so much...
y?
wat should i do...
tis four problem realli annoying...
should i say yes or i should say no...
or neither yes n no but stop...
is it better if all problem can be solve by using true or false n yes n no...
but now i realli dun noe wat to do...
juz lik Shakespeare said...
to be or not to be, tats a question...
but where can i get the answer of tis question?
or i should juz let it be...
can i juz let it be?
i realli hope tat i can...
although my mind can let it be...
but my heart n guts dun let me to let it be...
'they' wan me to solve all tis problem...
so 'they' keep on thinking bout tis problem...
but wat can i do...
every problem had it ownself formula...
but i cant the formula of tis problem...
how should i find these formula?
where should i find these formula?
wat should i do?
when should i do?
why should i do?
who can answer my question?

I Knew That Will Happen

haha...
do u feel tat we always gaduh on Thursday?
2day we gaduh again...
but did u feel tat we always gaduh juz becoz of small matter...
last time becoz of alcohol...
tis time becoz of pendrive...
last time juz gaduh 4 few hour...
2day when the ceramah start, we din talk to each other...
till juz now...
u call me juz 4 my uncle's num...
but u din tell me bout the num u wan is my bus uncle's num...
so i gave u a wrong num...
i dun noe tat the word u write in msg mean u angry or wat...
i juz noe tat even i got wrong in giving u a wrong num, but u had some fault too...
u din tell me bout which uncle's num u wan...
then...
bout the pen drive...
y u rushing 4 those pic...
i really cant found my pen drive...
u juz tell me bout ur pen drive got some secret...
as usual...
those secret sure is file...
i feel tat if u realli is rushing 4 those pic, u can juz put ur file as private file...
or also can save in ur com juz for temporary...
u din tell me tat ur pen drive background had changed...
so how i noe...
if u rushing 4 those pic, u borrow pen drive frm other ppl la...
i not yet found my pen drive...
how i borrow u...
by the way, i dunno whether when we will talk again...
maybe 2moro...
maybe nex week?
maybe???
haiz...
dunno la...

A Very Very Tired Day

today is the most tired day in tis few month....
yesterday i slept on 2am n today wake up on 8.30...
haiz...
tis is the 1st tired point: not enough sleep...
then i hav to prepare to go out in half hour time...
"rush, rush, rush‘
finally i got it...
i finish preparing in perfect 9am...
but i din eat...
oh my gosh...
so hungry...
tis is the 2nd tired point: din eat, so hungry, no energy...
then i went out n waiting for the ppl who fetch me...
wtf...
tat ppl say 9am will fetch me but she 9.30am only come fetch me...
but i still hav to pretend "never mind"...
aiya...
tats small case only...
nex...
we went to bsm carnival...
walaoe....
tat place is damn hot lo...
beside tat...
i din tie up my hair...
tats ~ hot + hot = very hot...
not yet finish...
the sun get more brighter n brighter...
tat place starts more hotter wit those smoke...
haiz....
become very hot + very hot = super hot...
n tis is the third point: no eat, lost energy, lost water n sun burn...
but thank god...
they also cant stand those temperature then we go to the nex destination...
we hav to walk frm bsm hq to bus stand...
although no so far but still damn hot...
lost energy n water again...
haiz...
our nex destination is new jj...
walao...
when we arrive the bus stand...
the bus stand is double the temperature of bsm hq...
damn hot * 2 = super damn hot...
haiz...
nvm la...
thank god we no need wait bus...
there is the bus we need there...
oh ya...
the bus not bad...
air-cond so strong...
help us lost our hot...
then...
wait, wait, wait...
finally he start the bus...
then our journey going new jj starts...
first we rest...
then when we arrive bukit tinggi...
we suddenly full of energy...
start to syok sendiri...
keep on taking pic...
non-stop...
then we start to walk...
shop, shop, shop...
shop non-stop...
then we when to eat...
really full...
wa....
i eat spaghetti...
tat spaghetti got a smell which so weird...
tat smell frm cheese...
it really hard to stand it...
but i push myself to finish it...
oh my god...
finally i finish it...
then we had a walk again...
they suggest to go home when they tired...
but i not yet feel really tired...
i feel tat i still can walk 4 a few hour...
is ok 4 me la...
go bac earlier, waste less money...
finally....
i can go home...
when i arrive home...
i did something very important...
tat is: hav a nap...
hahahahahaha.....
although tired but quite happy...

Suddenly Feel Like So Miss U

y i'll keep on thinking of u tis few day?
i suddenly feel lik so miss u...
i already long time din meet wit u...
i already long time get myself off frm u...
y i wil suddenly miss u?

i already decide to let u go n juz concentrate to study...
but wat let me turn my mind position to u...
we already long time din talk...
i already long time din talk bout u...
i already long time din think anything bout u...
but y i'll suddenly miss u...
i noe tat is impossible...
tats y i let it go...
but y it come bac...
is there anything tat can help me to forget u completely?

i dun wan tis type of feeling...
tis type feeling makes me suffer...
i juz wan to let myself go through a skol life...
wit skol...
wit books...
n wit frens...
how can i forget u completely?
now i'm so miss u...
thinking bout ' will u giv me a present on my birthday?'
but i noe tat is impossible...
we will meet juz becoz of tat gang...
but i'm now out frm tat gang...
so we'll nvr meet anymore...
so is impossible u can giv me a present...
i hope tat i can forget u completely...
i wanna to do tis...
but i really hope tat i can meet u one more time...
becoz i really miss u...
i hope tat i can forget u juz lik my tears...
flow out frm my body...

To My Pity Friend

fren...
i noe tat u r trying hard...
but still cant do it...
i also noe tat u so sad n also been think for give up...
but pls...
dun giv up...
u hav to work more harder...
i think u lack of basics...
tats y u suffer...
but pls dun giv up...
we will help u...
so...
pls dun always think to the negative way...
try to put ur mine to the positive way...
tis may can help u to gain somomore confidence...
by the way...
i think u can get good result...
juz ur confidence had covered by those tired...
those tired frm other place but not on study...
u need our help to gain more basics...
maybe is quite late...
but at least u try ur best...
although u get bad result on tis exam...
but if u keep on study hard...
u sure can gain more good result...
tis exam is quite difficult...
don lose ur confidence juz frm tis exam result...
we still got a lot of exam...
we hav to study hard together to improve...
the biggest enemy in our life is ourself...
so let us study hard together n win ourself...

i appologize if i hurt u frm tis post...
but tis is wat i wan to tell u...
but i dun dare to tell u...
i scare i hurt u...
but pls...
dun giv up...
try ur best to study hard...
try ur best good result...
dun take us to compare wit urself...
u r not us...
be urself which is hoping to get good result...

A Dissapointed Result In A Dissapointed Week

last few week we had a monthly exam...
a serious week we some serious student serious wit their exam...
tis is also a serious exam for our gang...
our gang desperately to get a good result...
but unfortunely...
our result is so dissapointed...
not yet reach the target we want...
not only us...
all of our class so dissapointed to their result...
i dunno y the result can be so damn poor...
i think the average of the result on tis exam is far away frm the previous result...
onli for the bi result is already enough to pull the result bac to a long long way...
almost half of our class fail the bi exam...
juz some of them lik me so lucky can juz pass through the pass line...
but not too far...
if i'm not wrong...
the highest onli 50++...
how can it be?

besides the sej result also the dissapointed point...
onli 5 ppl of our class pass it...
i'm also the 1 who fail it...
i really hope tat i will not fail any subject...
i got all the good result at the start...
then i finally pass my add math which i nvr pass before...
not onli pass...
i got more than my target n she fail it....
then i got the subject tat i most worried about... acc...
actually my acc is quite good...
but i think i'm having a bad condition causing i forgot all the format of the account...
fortunately i pass it...
at the end before getting sej result i'm so happy...
i got all pass...
although i noe tat i sure fail on sej...
but i really hope tat i can be the lucky person...
can pass juz get frm the objective parts which is all tembak...
but my dream brokes...
i'm still fail...
i cant pass it...
n the last subject becomes the 1st red record in my record book for tis exam...
now i'm start to wondering whether i can go torwards my target on tis kind of condition or not...

A Very Horrible Thing That I Had To Face Today

tis is the most scary n horrible thing tat i had to face it...
i go skol by bus every morning....
on the way to go skol, we had to change to another bus...
then when im going down frm my bus is still is new n good day 4 me...
but my good day end here n my terrible day had started...
when til my turn to go down frm bus n on the stair of the bus,
i had scare by tat horrible thing...
the ppl who go down be4 me suddenly fall down into a deep drain...
the ppl fell down in front of my eyes...
but i donno wat should i do...
i almost scream when i saw it...
but i didn't...
i juz scared...
i donno wat should i do when i get shocked...
i juz hav a look n straight pass through it...
i donno how the ppl fall into the drain...
there should be covered...
or not?
or is not been covered...
i cant remember it...
but i should remember it...
why can i forget it...
i juz remember the cover of the drain is made by cement or stone...
tat ppl step on tat n maybe the it crack...
so tat ppl wil drop in the drain...
or tat ppl wanted to go by shortcut then step on the cover...
who noes the cover which is going to crack cant stand the ppl weight the crack...
n then the ppl "dulp" drop into he drain...
its really scary...
if the cover really had been covered n it crack when the ppl stand on it,
is really dangerous 4 me...
if tat ppl din go to skol, then i'll be the victims...
is really scary...
then the ppl who drop into the drain is me...
the ppl who hurts is me...
i feel myself shivering after i go on the bus...
i keep on thinking if the ppl who drop into the drain is me, wat wil i do...
wat wil happen to me...
wil i cry...
wil i shocked until suffer frm any kind of mental disease...
or
wil i die?
but then the ppl is ok...
she juz injured on leg (i think)...
then the bus driver maybe took her to hospital, clinic or home...
i really scare this will happen to me...
although i had been thinking to die before this, but now i cant...
i don wan...
i wan to study,
had my SPM,
rush to my target,
n take the best result ever starting frm my secondary period...
i had start plan n going forward it...
i dun wanna to die or get injured be4 SPM...
so i hope...
"GOD... pls help me to finish tis plan without anything happen to me... n i begged u to help me to complete tis plan..."

Hidden Meaning In My Name

This is the hidden meaning in my name....
but i'll not write my name here...
i got this website frm my fren...

WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA.......

The hidden meaning in my name is
Charming, poised and sociable you need peace and harmony around you and always seek to create a happy environment. Perceptive and with strong intuition you are able to make sound judgements. You show great flexibility in attitude being open and responsive to the needs and opinions of others. This ability gives you potential for success in business dealing with the public. Your warm personality and caring ways ensure you are loved by family and friends.

If u also like to find out the hidden meaning in ur name...
juz log on to this website...
http://www.bostonuk.com/name_meanings.php?f=Boston

还有还有。。。

改版“朋友”

还有。。。

还有
主题曲“对手”＋《东汉学院》校歌＋剧照

我在追的戏。。。超好看的。。。去看看吧。。。

终极一班 》终极一家 》终极三国

“容忍的人其实并不笨，只是宁可对自己残忍”

在方炯槟的“坏人”里，有一句词是最让我印象深刻的。。。
那就是“容忍的人其实并不笨，只是宁可对自己残忍”。。。
容忍的人真的不笨吗？
可是我觉得容忍的人很笨。。。
不停地容忍只会让自己受伤。。。
为什么要为了别人而伤害自己呢？
害自己不停的受委屈。。。
害自己为了别人而失去信心。。。
也害自己对别人失去信心。。。
可是若没有了容忍会发生什么事呢？
会彼此伤害吗？
还是只会伤害自己。。。
害自己没有朋友。。。
害自己身边的朋友都离你而去。。。
还是。。。
天天与朋友吵架。。。
结果朋友都讨厌你。。。
可是容忍真的对自己很残忍。。。
到底是为了什么呢？
为了保护自己需要的东西吗？
友情？
亲情？
爱情？
还是全部呢？
为什么我要容忍他们呢？
他们对我的友情是虚拟的。。。
为什么我要维护着虚拟的友情呢？
有谁能够告诉我这个问题的答案？
维护虚拟的友情能带来什么？
能带来好处吗？
我只知道。。。
如果我再继续维护这种虚拟的友情，我会发疯。。。
终有一天我会自责。。。
无法对自己承认自己到底做过什么事。。。
难道这不叫做笨吗？
为了容忍与保护虚拟的友情。。。
换来的代价就是对自己残忍。。。
这真的不笨吗？
如果是我，我会把这句歌词改掉。。。
改成。。。
“容忍的人其实非常笨，竟然宁可对自己残忍”

刚刚做完一个实验。。。 你们也来试试吧！！！

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My Luck My Fate 2

...Continue of My Luck My Fate...

besides they treat us lik maid,they also tortune us...
they don let us to watch movie...
they wan us sit at the living but not on sofa or chair but on floor...
the most excessive is...
we had to turn around n facing the wall...
they don wan let us to watch movie also...
other than tat...
they also call us wit the name they lik...
do u noe wat they call me??
"SMELLY GIRL"... in cantonese "臭妹“...
do i really smelly on tat time or now also same???
SMELLY....
thank god my mother feel my sis can take care herself so she dint let her go there anymore...
n also thank god i only stay at there only for 4 years....
tis is the most bad phase tat i had in my whole life until now...
but now i still hope tat i can tell them something...


for tat family members...
Hey man....
u thought u r king n queen ar?
or u r moneybags?
can treat me n my sis as a maid...
dont u forget...
my mum is the 1 who paid u...
not u r the 1 who paid me...
so u din hav the authority to treat us lik maid...
my mum paid u for take care of us but u tortune us...
u din take good care of us still wan to blame us...
y im smelly???
bcoz of u la...
pls dun 4get...
i take bath in ur house n using ur shampoo or body shampoo...
u think u so incense ar?
HAHAHAHAHA...
U... the fatty uncle....
u r the most smelliest person in tat house...
full wit smoke...
non-stop smoking...
be careful later #@*%$!?*@%$#$ a...
haiz...
continue u all these also useless...
but i had some advice to u...
hope u can see tat n make it come true...

• go n try those nausea tat u force us to eat n u noe wat the taste...
• go treat u son or daughter juz lik how u treat us... see wat feeling wil they giv u...
• treat other ppl better or else u wil get the retribution....
• n try to stand in other ppl position before u wan do anything to them...

To All Those "8 PO"

hei...
y can u 8 po so noisy har?
never shut ur mouth up...
dont u tired?
do u noe tat we had to take exam soon...
pls la...
u dun wan study ppl also wan study le...
u think only u in think class a... (opps!!!)
ps: u = 8 po
juz lik scare nex time no change to talk...
wan talk also need to noe choose time ma...
n why u always talk lik shout har...
ur fren all deaf a? (haha... thank god im not really ur fren)
be careful lo....
later ur throat broke or shatter...
tats better...
our class can be quiet for at least a whole day...
tats the heaven when u r out of voice or absent...
eventhought is bad is said u all until lik tis...
but...
i cant leep these feeling in my heart because u r disturbing me study...
u wan fail ur exam ur problem la...
i wan score de le...
u dun wan score got a side la...
let me score...

y u treat me lik tis....

do u hate me?
y u treat me lik tat...
treat me lik a stranger...
i need ur help y u dunwan help me...
tis help is a normal help...
it wil not kill u or drop u into dangerous...
y u wan to do tis to me?
im not ur best fren rite?
orelse y u treat me lik tat...
i also cry when u talk to me lik tat...
im sure u donno anything right?
y?
im so dissapointed to u...
cant u treat me better?
y u so selfish?
u such aselfish ppl...
juz noe bout ur own good...
so selfish...
selfish person...
i dono wat i can when i face to u?
pretending nothing nothing or angrying to u?
wat can i do?
can any body tell me?

A dream

i had a dream 2day...
a weird dream...
in tat dream...
im in my house...
suddenly a boy who i don noe who's tat came into my house...
tat boy had my house key...
is tat weird?
the boy quite handsome...
i think is the type which i lik...
then dono y i also let him come into my house...
he keep on take thing tat juz buy come to my house...
in n out 4 a few time...
juz lik my house is empty n he need to decorate it wit things he buy...
then he juz come into my house n non stop cleaning my house...
after tat my family had came bac...
but they din scold me...
suddenly tat boy sit on the sofa watch tv...
he sit on a sofa which my brother n mother also sit on tat...
but a while after tat,
he is standing outside...
lik somebody is punishing him stand outside...
a while after tat he turns to a indian...
when i saw tat the indian goes out n he come bac again...
but not alone...
wit so many ppl...
all those ppl i also don noe...
but they keep on say the boy is chasing me...
wan me accept him...
tat the end of tis dream...
i hope if tat dream is a realiti,
in tat dream my mom allows me date wit other guy...
got a boy quite handsome chasing me...
n the boy also treat me quite good....

...The End...

My Luck My Fate

i really hope i can become u...
got father which is so protect u,
mother which is always left at home 2 take care of u,
sister who can become ur listener,
brother which can play with,
n u r the last child of tis family...
but me...
i'm juz a lonely n ugly girl since kindergarden...
when i'm small...
i stay with my cousin...
she had 2 work then cant take care of me...
her mother will go buy thing also...
then they will left me at home alone...
after that i reach 2 primary skol...
my fate still very pity...
i stay at my babysitter home when my mum is working...
tat family always bully me n my sis...
everytime eat chicken, they wil cook with the skin....
the skin taste too nausea...then i had thought to throw it...
but unfortunenately found out by tat family...
they force us to eat tat...
me n my sister had to force ourself to eat those nausea thing...
tat nausea thing let us eat until almost vomit out wat we had eat be4 tat...
beside tat...
they also treat us lik maid...
they always call us to do tis n tat...
mayde u think is only a request...
but not at all...
they use a very bad manner to call us to do tat thing...
n also without any 'thank you'...

TO BE CONTINUED...