~Thanks, my dear YL~

My life is going onto a emo stage...
Broke up with him is a big challenge...
But this make me noes tat who really care bout me...
YL, thank you to let me tell u everything today...
U r the 1st one i tell the full story...
I noe u will support me until i let go...
I hope i can too...
But i'm still love him...
2 year feeling i really hard to let go in a "good ending" relationship...
It will be more hard becoz it is so complicated...
I'll try my best to figure it out n walk out from this stage...
Thanks for your support my dear....

long time no see lo~~

long time din write tis blog ad
becoz i forgot tis blog email address n password ad
haha
now i found bac
having a new life now at UTAR PJ campus
many of my fren at KAMPAR campus
some at KTAR
haha
KTAR is my choice be4 i choice UTAR
now i'm having another blog
tat blog special 4 secret
haha
nobody else will see tis blog
but i gave my bf see tis blog be4
in tat blog
at the moment
almost all bout him
but i felt dissapointed
when i ask him
"finish reading?"
"nope, too many words... lazy to read..."
hurt
tats all frm my heart
he still ask me
"all those article u get frm ur fren wan a?"
oh my god
damn hurt
all write by myself
but he said is frm others
wanna to cry
since i 2gether wit him
i cried
many many times
but i also feel so happy wit him
i been cried to him
cried for him
smile to him
smile becoz of him
all my life surrounded
surrounded by him
life busy start when i start to skul
wake up in the morning
then breakfast n prepare for skul
after breakfast, go to skul n hav class
when i finish class, go home n hav a nap
after a small nap, cook dinner
after dinner, bath
after bath, i left 3 hours be4 i sleep
in tis 3 hours
i wait for his call
maybe did some revision
fb-ing
n pps-ing
maybe some chatting wit my roommate
all day full
busy busy~~~~

result for my new year wish

the 1st wish i post in my blog is get more than 3A's in my spm...
i din get more than 3A's but i get 3A...
so i think tis wish came true...
2nd is have a new life during 2010
i had a working life frm january to april...
then become a lazy worm at home for 3 week...
then going to study at utar on end of may...
i'll stay at pj so i think i'm having a new life...
3rd is make my family proud...
i dunno whether i did make my family proud or not...
so tis wish stil in a KIV condition...
4th is slim down as fast as possible...
erm...
tis wish i think wont come true becoz i'm not stop gaining weight...
so...
5th face keep nice...
nope...
my face starting to grow pimples n become very oily...
6th hair become smoother?
nope also...
my hair getting drier day by day...
haiz...
7th hair length
ya...
my hair very long now...
but very unhealthy...
8th mom care me more than before...
nope too...
my mom din care me more then before...
but she become more annoying than before...
9th get car after i go into university...
half half lo...
my mom bought a car...
only i hav the chance to drive...
juz lik the car is mine...
but...
i only can drive when my mom n uncle is in the car...
damn...
the last wish tat keeping empty...
wanna to noe wat is it?
the answer is get a boyfren...
now tis wish come true...
i hav a boyfren now...
although not all wishes come true but at least almost half of it came true...
is enough but i wil continue hoping for the wishes tat not yet come true..

i'm back

long time din write blog ad...
coz i forgot tis blogger email address n password ad...
but 2day suddenly remember it...
tis monday went to orientation in utar...
a lot of ppl at there...
900++
i'm 1 of them...
thank god i met my roommate be4 i go to the orientation n we had exchange our num...
or else i sure wil very boring during the orientation...
i'm feeling i'm so unlucky tis year...
lost my phone on january...
rob by motor on april...
n haunted by the mc during the orientation becoz of my hair on may...
why i wear red shirt tat day...
so embarrassing...
i wearing red shirt n with red spec tat day...
n the mc remember me becoz my hair is red too...
i'm the only 1 wit red hair...
haiz....
hav to start my new life in pj...
but alone there feel so scary...
hoping my roommate wil move in aas fast as she can...
i'm not scare becoz of sleep alone in tat room...
i'm scare becoz i dunno how to go to skol alone...
exspecially tis thursday...
hope uncle no airport...
then he can fetch me there...
pls...
pray for me...

learning car

yesterday is the 1st day i learn car~
oh my god~
so scary~
1st~
learn to move the gear~
stupid me~
coz...( hehe, cannot tell u)...
then go around in the study skul~
ok la~
not bad~
then the most scary parts came~
go to the road~
oh my god~
damn scary~
but i did it~
cant say is perfectly~
but no bad~
then 2nd run~
oh my god~ so many car~
wat should i do~
become more n more gan jiong~
but i stil did it at the end~ hehe~


then 2day~
learn car again~
go to the road again~
worst than yesterday~
i think i did 4 round~
but i think not so gud~
always forgot the signal~
oh my god~
dissapointed to myself~
then i go through the road for parking~
not bad la~
juz 1 time almost 'kiss' the tiang~
n the dog in there so notty wan lo~
always kacau me~
ish~~~~


maybe 2moro wil learn again~
but i more hope tat 2moro start work~
boss~~~~~~
faster call me la~~~~
i wan work~~~~
T.T

NEW YEAR

most of the ppl say~
"new year means a new life"
but its same for me...
2010 does not hav any difference wit 2009 in my life~
still is the same~
alone in house~
maybe it will cahnge~
but not now~
coz i had a same day like usual in 2009 on 01/01/2010~
not only tat day~
even 24/12/2009 , 25/12/2009 n 31/12/2009 also is the same~
only 1 word~
bored~
i'm having a bored life~
hope my life can change after 2009~

recent situation

long time no write blog liao...
too busy...
busy wit exam...
recently, so many stress...
i noe so many thing recently...
1st, the ppl i thought is good suddenly turn into a bad guy...
wat a shock...
y he can cover til so secretly...
thank god i din in love to him...
then i noe tat i'm so temper recently...
i can scold ppl juz becoz a small matter...
then 2day i heard again the truth tat i dun wan face to...
the my fren keeping secret n make us so worry bout her...
i think the problem is frm her father...
bad things going on but at least stil got 1 news tat i lik...
mom gonna to buy car soon...
i feel so happy...
n also so selfish...
i dun wan to tell my sis...
i scare her come bac n seize it...
i worry tat the car wil belong to her...
i hope tat spm can past asap...
i'm so tired...
ppl can holiday but pity me stil hav to study...
now i always fancy wat will happen after i got the car...
i hope my dream wil come true...
i ad lost the things everybody had...
i dun wan lost this too...

gathering

few days before i went to my primary skol class gathering...
tat day i really worry bout wat will happen at there...
but thank god...
i hav fun there...
we all very happy at there...
my primary skol fren all very funny...
tats y we non stop laughing n laughing...
we had bbq there...
but too bad...
rain comes...
but they still keep on bbq before the rain get heavy...
when the rain get heavy, all of us hav to squeeze in a small area...
but we stil having fun...
after the rain...
we all full ad...
they wanted to play 'true or dare'...
i knew it before i go...
i guess they will play tat...
finally i'm right...
but they said everybody hav secret...
so we juz play dare to keep everybody secret...
they use bottle to spin n see whether who's the lucky person...
i really scare tat i'll be the lucky person...
1st time...
not me(thank god)...
2nd time...
not me also(oh...)...
but they plan to get the 2nd person a partner...
then my fate came to me... i'm the 3rd lucky person...
wat did we do???
they wan the 2nd lucky fellow(boy) to kneel in front of me n propose...
to me!!!
oh my god...
wat can i do...
juz follow...
standing at there n having a shy face...
some 'audience' told me to not accept him...
but some say if i dun accept...
the guy no need wake up...
oh my god...
help...
hav to accept...
hurry finish up tis mission n bac to sit...
but is fun also...
haiz...
but after tat...
i'm the 1st person bac home...
too bad...
regret...
but no choice...
nobody send me bac if i dun bac at tat time...
however stil hope tat they will organise again this kind of gathering again soon...
maybe 3 month once...
wakaka...
coz too happy wit them...
no cares at all...
juz happy...

WORRY

2moro(i mean 2day coz past 12 o'clock ad) i'll go gathering...
this gathering is for all 6j class wan ppl...
i'm so worry now...
i worry i'll alone at there...
sitting at there silently...
but i call kar mun to accompany me...
thank god at the end she said she will go...
other than tat... wat should i wear 2moro...
should i bring bag...
haiz...
so many to cares about...
i scare i go then they talk bad things of me
or more worst
din talk to me at all...
i'm so scare wit it...
coz i hate alone...
exspecially not in house...
we din meet too long...
i worry then forget who am i ad...
argh~~~~~~~~
wat can i do to let tis problem run out frm my brain...
wat can i do...
hopefully 2moro i'll have a happy ending...

恨

突然觉得我自己很讨人厌
记得有一天
我只是用很普通的语气跟某人说了一句话
可是那人却说我用很凶的语气
后来
我告诉朋友这件事
她告诉我
我的语气一向来都是酱的
当时
开心与恨同时出现
开心是因为我有多了解了自己
可是因为这了解我更恨自己
恨自己不了解自己
恨自己为什么有这种语气
恨自己为什么不直接哑了算了
我该怎么改呢
我能改吗
是这种语气害的吗
害得我失去所有
所有我曾经拥有的东西

闲着也是闲着

好久没写部落格了～
每次想要写～
可是偏偏过一下子就没有心情写了～
今天是闲着也是闲着～
然后突然又想起很久没写了～
所以才写的～
废话一大堆～
因为不懂要写什么～
不是没有东西写～
而是太多了不懂要写什么～

觉悟

躲在自己世界两个星期了
是时候该起来了吧
该出来面对现实了
在这两个星期里
我想了好多好多
好多如果
好多早知道
好多为什么
最后我得到的答案只有后悔
我曾经问过我干妹
“后悔是一个人决定放下或错过后用的。。。你是哪个呢？”
答案呢
是都有
我决定放下以前悲观的我
尽量改变自己
我也决定放下他
因为我错过了很多很多
错过了我跟他之间的事
错过了所有好事
因为我都活在一个悲伤的世界里
所以
从明天起
我要改变自己
改变自己的想法
把悲观改成乐观
希望我这决心能够成功
决心改变
面对未来
希望你们支持我哦
加油！加油！加油！

酸甜苦辣咸

味觉对每个人有不同的意义
厨师没有味觉就如同没有了生命
人类没有了味觉就会觉得生活没有了意义
不同的味觉有着不同的感觉
我对这些味觉的感觉事情：

• 酸－羡慕的感觉

这是我一直以来藏着的感觉

• 甜－难得的感觉

这是我一直希望得到的感觉

• 苦－熟悉的感觉

这是我多年以来习惯的感觉

• 辣－刺激的感觉

这是我少而不想尝的感觉

• 咸－等待的感觉

这是我唯一会拥有的感觉

Toilsome Day

yesterday is a toilsome day...
i slept on 4.40am...
then wake up on 5.40am...
then i still feel lik usual...
juz more tired...
but then when i'm on bus...
i start to feel unwell...
feel lik got something stuck in my throat...
feel lik wanna to vomit...
but i'm on bus...
i cannot juz vomit out...
so i try to stand tat feeling...
then is time i had to change bus...
when i change to the other bus...
there is no any empty place anymore...
then i start more indisposed...
so suffer...
wanna to vomit but cant...
at the same time...
my stomach also start to pain...
tat bus is so cold...
full wit air-cond...
the weakness when my stomach feeling unwell is wind...
somemore tat is air-cond...
lik tis i felt more n more suffer...
then i start to having cold sweat...
oh my god...
almost fainted...
then finally arrive skol...
but weird...
i feel more better when i arrive skol...
but still hav assembly...
haiz...
suppress...
but cant...
i feel more serious...
but still hav to assembly...
somemore standing...
damn it...
start feeling dizzy...
my fren told me tat my lips is totally turn white...
ya...
coz i feel so anguish...
but thank god juz for a while...
then my world slowly back to usual...
coz the teachers let us sit...
then i slept...
after tat i feel more better...
so...
do u think tis is a really toilsome day?

Damn U!!!

hei u... wat kind of fren r u har?
ya...
i like him...
how?
i dunno whether he got gf or not...
i also dun care he got gf or not...
coz i never think about i wanna to be wit him...
i noe tat i din hav tat chance...
tats y i din take action...
u tis damn "fren"...
starting last year u start to say bad thing bout me...
i din did anything to u...
y u wan take my thing as ur story title...
i think u also noe tat i ad noe u always gossip bout me...
now we noe we r pretending to be fren to each other...
my target r to revenge...
but wats urs?
i'm useless for u noe...
hei...
pls la...
i noe u got bf ad...
then how...
i dun think u n ur bf can last how long...
no matter who i lik...
wat i did...
those r all...
NON OF UR BUSINESS...
pls leave me alone...
dun come into my world...
i'm a sleeping volcano by now...
but i dunno whether when i'll wake up...
i juz wanna to say...
i'll wake up anytime if u keep it up...
i'm holding those bad feelings right now...
i'll revenge when u really makes me "BOOM"...
i think tis will come sooner if u keep on lik chicken backside...
so i think no u better...
KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT!!!

Dai Bao Birthday

yesterday is dai bao - phiak birthday...
celebrate in newway...
really play until lik xiao po o...
everybody wit chocolate cake cream...
damn smelly chocolate cream...
when i'm waiting bus at the kp bus stand, the auntie beside me dunno y go far frm me...
i think becoz then smell of the smelly chocolate cake...
haiz...
really xia sui...
then go into bus...
go to the last n corner place...
then a boy sit beside me...
i noe i'm so smelly...
so i stay far frm tat ppl...
haiz...
hate the smell...
i felt after i wash my hair i also smell the chocolate...
lik the smell of vomit thing...
yaks...
disgusting...
but still hav fun 2day...
haha...
dai bao...
did u hav fun too?
by the way...
hope u hav a happy birthday...

Two Weeks Holiday

haiz...
i'm wasting my time...
2 weeks holiday...
wat had i did?
the beginning of the first week...
online...
watch movie...
eat...
sleep...
nothing else i did...
all useless thing...
then the end of the first week...
i thought i will juz use tis whole week to online n watch movie...
but...
my sis...
my noob sis...
she din pay for the p1...
so cant online...
therefore...
i clean my room n my sis room...
wanna use my sis room to study...
at least i done something useful...
clean my sis room...
tat room not lik other room...
ohter room quite warm or can say hot whole day...
but tat room more comfortable...
haha...
happy coz i did it...
then i start doing sej notes...
but i did a bit only...
then i start feel sleepy...
haiz...
then the beginning of the second week...
my bro comes bac...
the beginning of tis week...
i did nothing...
juz cook...
watching my bro play game...
n shopping...
my mom take leave to teman my bro...
the we almost everyday go shopping...
haiz...
we plan to bring my bro go bac on thursday...
but coz of some reason...
he go bac yesterday...
tis few days i only hav chance to go near the computer when he sleep...
coz he non-stop using the computer...
i even din sleep juz for online...
in tis week...
i try 3 day sleep after 6am...
haiz...
become panda ad...
sumore tis 2 week i non-stop eating...
eat eat eat....
fat ad la...
haiz...
wat i did before all useless ad...
haiz...
2day is the end of the 2 weeks holiday...
in tis 2 weeks did nothing...
still hav a lot of homework not yet do...
dunno how will my life be if i continue lik tis...
i feel i had go far frm my target...
very very far...
worried...

A Cool Video

tat day yl show me a cool video...
tat video got some scene which can touch ppl heart n also got some scene tat quite scary...
there is also some scene tat is inappropriate for immature audiences...
haha... but really cool...

Birthday

yesterday is my birthday...
i got a lot of birthday msg before the sun rise...
i feel so happy...
but when the sun rise, i start to wait...
waiting for birthday msg frm somebody...
when i waiting for the msg, i think back to last year...
tat year, i celebrate my birthday in ktv...
i did invite him n he did attend...
i'm very happy...
he did give me present together wit his fren...
then i start to miss him...
n i also starting to ask myself...
y he not yet send birthday msg to me?
did they prepare a special suprise for my birthday?
am i going to meet wit him 2day?
but this is all the no answer's question...
sadness n loneliness start to come into my heart...
i feel sad...
i feel lonely...
if as usual...
i will cry...
but i din...
dunno y my tear din drop...
i really feel wanna to cry but my tears din drop at all...
is it my tears ad dry or finish till i cant cry anymore?
still miss him now...
dunno wat should i do...

A Day Before My Birthday

a day before my birthday my fren invite me out...
we go to sunway...
when we arrive there, we go for our "breakfast"...
we eat in 'the chicken rice shop'...
the food at there no bad, but the service...erm...
after tat we go for a movie...
but we going to the cinema, we lost our direction...
thank god we can find the cinema before the movie start...
after we watch the movie, we go for archery...
archery is not bad but i dun feel comfortable wit the thing i'm wearing...
so i get a BAD result...
haiz...
but nvm la...
tis is the first time i play tis game...
after tat we go for a walk...
i walk to getting dinner dress...
i go for many shop n i finally found it...
although juz 2 of us...
but also quite happy wan la...